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Patience

Some days are easier than others.

You can blame the weather or that time of the month, but I will say it's just me. It's not uncommon for me to feel happy, sad or angry all in the same day or even within the same hour.

I try, I try, I try to realize that there are worst things in the world and I need to have patience.  It's not easy.  I feel guilty for feeling sad and resenting every pregnant woman out there. I feel lost! I feel stuck! This sucks!

Do you know what the definition of insanity is? It's doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results.
I do.

Have you seen the movie Groundhog Day?
Welcome to my world.

Am I being such a downer?
Yup.

Am I going to quit?
Nope.

Am I learning true patience?
For sure.

If You're Looking For Me

I started to write a new post yesterday. It was full of raw emotion. So glad I didn't post it.
If you're looking for me I'll be somewhere over the rainbow...

On A Quest

On a quest to quiet my mind, I realize I don't listen to enough music....
Here is one of my favourite's

Friend

I met a friend today for lunch.

I love meeting up with her because we always seem to pick up where we left off. It's not always easy with schedules but...it could be a week, a month or a year and it always seems like just yesterday when I see her.

If I ever needed anything I could and would totally call her.

Friends, for me, are far and few between. Which I prefer. The unconditional love of a friend-like that of my friend today, is so rare and special.

Thank you my friend for more than you really know!

This Moment

My blog is titled "These Defining Moments" and I have to say in this moment there is nothing going on. I mean nothing, nada, zip, zilch, zero.

A defining moment is actually described as...  An event, action, or decision that results in a significant change for a person, institution,community,country or the world       (thanks Answer.com)

So as I sit here thinking about what I just wrote, I realize that I am right smack in the middle of a defining time-which once I make a move, will be a defining moment. I need to make some very important decisions and changes. I just don't know how and where to start.

I often have internal dialogues within myself and some days it goes like this......"now what are you going to do hotshot? the clocks ticking and you are not getting any younger. You only get what you give. Is this what you've strived to be all your life? What are you doing?"  BLAH

And other days it's more like this... "Don't worry, you've got plenty of time. Have patience, there is only so much you can control. Your doing just fine with everything in your life" BLAH

As Wilt Whitman, an American poet and as quoted in the movie TinCup, I now say " Self, YOU EITHER DEFINE THE MOMENT OR THE MOMENT WILL DEFINE YOU"

And don't I know it.

Happy New Year

I'm sitting here wanting to write my first post of the new year but I don't know what to say. Strange.

I can recap 2010, but I don't want to. Instead I will choose one word that describes it, ENDURANCE. That's all for that. Goodbye 2010.

Hello 2011. I welcome you with open arms, an open heart and an open mind. Please be good to me.

Happy New Year.

Peace.