Sunday, February 20, 2011

Hakuna Matata

I went to visit the cutest toddler in the world yesterday (ok, maybe I'm a bit bias), S is so into The Lion King. I LOVE THE LION KING! (I happen to have my own platinum edition, thank you).

Her new favourite song and exactly what I needed a dose of.....

Hakuna Matata

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Yin and Yang

I've been entertaining the idea of trying some alternative medicine.

I am currently reading The Infertility Cure by Dr. Randine Lewis. It talks about incorporating Traditional Chinese Medicine and Acupunture to your fertility regime or strictly as your fertility regime.
Really what do I have to lose. I'm willing to try just about anything at this point. And since our next treatment is either insemination #3 or IVF the price is right.

My goal for the next week is to complete my read and find a Naturopathic Doctor that will add some TCM to the mix or even better a Doctor that actually follows this Fertility Program. It will be a whole new world for me that, at this point, won't include hormones, hormones and more hormones.

The basis of TCM is all about energy, opposites, and balance...
Yin and Yang here I come...

Monday, February 7, 2011

Time well wasted

I've been known to rearrange furniture and decor at home at least once a month...

So why wouldn't I try to rearrange the look of my blog, change it up a bit, add some new things until I'm satisfied (I mentioned I was indecisive, right?).

I think I'd like to call this time well wasted. While I'm fussing with colours, layout and design, I'm not thinking of when my next cycle monitoring session may OR may not begin.
While we are anxious and need to be more aggressive in treatment and possibly adding alternative treatments our pockets have a whole in them.

It's been 2 months now since we've been to the clinic. The first month was due to a holiday shut down and the second month I wasn't quite ready to return. I'm ready now to once again be poked, prodded and hormonally jacked.

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

What God Meant

I came across this lovely poem...
It made me breathe so deeply...
It lifted my heart so slightly...

What God Meant

What do I think God meant when He gave me infertility?

I think He meant for my husband and I to grow closer, become stronger, love deeper.

I think God meant for us to find the fortitude within ourselves to get up every time infertility knocks us down.

I think God meant for our medical community to discover medicines, invent medical equipment, create procedures and protocols.

I think God meant for us to find a cure for fertility.

No, God never meant for me to not have children.

That's not my destiny; that's just a fork in the road I'm on.

I've been placed on the road less traveled, and like it or not, I'm a better person for it.

Clearly, God meant for me to develop more compassion, deeper courage, and greater inner strength on this journey to resolution, and I haven't let Him down.

Frankly, if the truth be known, I think God singled me out for special treatment.

I think God meant for me to build a thirst for a child so strong and so deep that when that baby is finally placed in my arms, it will be the longest, coolest, most refreshing drink I've ever known.

While I would never have chosen infertility, I cannot deny that a fertile woman could ever experience the joy that I know awaits me.

Yes, one way or another, I will have a baby of my own.

And the next time someone wants to offer me unsolicited advice, I'll say, "Don't tell me what God meant when He handed me infertility. I already know."

Author Unknown